I live in America as a 20 year old Asian enby (I think?), and I am not sure what I want to do besides leave the house my parents live in (they are humongous jerks). The issue with me moving out is that I do not have any job prospects (I am thinking of quitting college), many connections (I only talk to a few people online), or a mentally sound mind (I have PTSD and depression among other things). What should I do?
Ack, school mentioned! I actually am thinking of dropping out of college (I was majoring in political science) due to mental health issues (panic attacks from driving mixed with really bad forms of OCD really made it a horrible experience), but to be honest, I do not know how to quit college formally. My parents probably want me to go back to college (yet ironically they never went to college from what I know of them), though I have no plans to do so.
Your recommendations are pretty interesting, though I do have to say that I have social anxiety and would likely hate being in a subservient role like a waiter (due to my upbringing by my parents), so I should think hard about that. I never thought about offering my own service though (I painted for a volunteering thing that was required for my scholarship thing, which made me think that I could get into painting a few times, but I never threw myself into it).
Stay in school. You will regret it otherwise later if you don’t. You might be able to find a program offering a semester or year abroad. I would absolutely take that opportunity. It will open up many other possibilities for you, including, should you wish it, moving to another country. There are countries where tuition is free or very low.
I think I should clarify that my experience in college involved very traumatic things alongside the fact that it was just super boring to me (to the point of tiring me out). I know that quitting college will prevent me from getting more jobs or opportunities, but I am just so tired of many things that I have trouble getting through my day if I also have to go to college alongside that.
If you stay in school, you learn the lies they tell and perhaps this would come in handy in other jobs, perhaps abroad. Reporting, perhaps.
Waiting tables wasn’t bad for me when I was young. I didn’t feel subservient, I felt rich.
I could tell you about the lies I learned from my conservative professor if you would like! And regarding what you said about staying in school, I am not sure I can deal with the mental exhaustion it gives me (on top of the stress I get from driving and the bad mental illnesses I have to deal with).
I think that I hate anything even remotely resembling subservience because that is the relationship my parents expect with me (they do not accept me defying their orders, and they threaten me with things like not making food for me or cutting off the Wi-Fi); it is also part of the expectations that racists have with Asians in general.
Well we’re nowhere close to a proletarian revo, so your choices are physically train up and get hard while living on the streets, hoping scraps you scrounge and beg are sustainable and nourishing or you be “subservient” for a short while and get a marketable skill. There may be other options, but I’m tired and not seeing them rn.
You are definitely right about me needing to get a marketable skill, and I should definitely find a way to treat my mental health so working is not such a struggle.
There may be free or low cost options in your area. I can tell you from my personal experience with that that you get a lot more bad or mediocre therapists that way, than good. Fire the bad ones, stick with mediocre until a better one is available.
That could be true, though I kinda live in a small patch between more populated areas, so I might have to travel to places of higher density to get therapy (if I do not want to risk getting online therapy). It is so unfortunate that we need lots of money just to get a necessary improvement to our mental health.