I don’t feel very good right now. I’m one year and some change on HRT. It’s been a wonderful experience so far and I love being a girl. I know that I’m trans, and I’m reminded by “why” every time I go home and I’m forced to boymode.
Unfortunately that’s little comfort to the complex feelings of starting to feel erectile dysfunction (ED). I just had sex with my trans girlfriend and she didn’t have much left. I can’t ignore this feeling I’m on that same path eventually.
I want some sort of function either male or female. Even though I still wish I was born with a vagina. It pains me to even think about going off HRT though. I love being a girl too much and I don’t think I could present fem without HRT. I still have most all of its function but it doesn’t stay up for as long.
It’s a completely irrational feeling that I hope will be solved eventually with SRS, but that’s probably 10 years away and I just learned how to be sexual 2 years ago.
I’ve had bottom surgery and I never needed to dilate even once, since I don’t have a vagina. I had nullification surgery. I’ve got nothing down there but a uritty.
Nulloplasty isn’t for everyone, but it’s the absolute lowest maintenance bottom surgery and I love the results. I wear leggings all the time now. No bulge, no camel toe, no nothing.
I’d really like to go streaking at a protest and get arrested for exposing nothing. I want to go to cout and establish some precedent!