Hellooo First post. I need to vent to the internet as I feel shockingly terrible.
So i saw my GP to discuss the next step towards transition. She pointed me to a nearby (as rural areas go) doctor who knows about gender affirming care which is very cool.
During that she asked, just out of curiousity, if i was going to “socially transition” before or after medically transitioning.
For me, Ive decided to do so afterwards. Its just mentally painful for me to call myself a women while I look like the bloater from state of decay 2. Thats a terrible and comical way to put it but its how i feel and thats the image conjured in my mind.
I think its essentially that changing pronouns does very little for me while I am still a man physically speaking. And most its maybe a nice bump in happy chemicals and then a quick realisation that indeed I am still a man so i just feel terrible again.
Anyway, hope you have a nice day/evening :)
You’re obviously free to do whatever you want, but I bet if you shave and get some new clothes and makeup (even better if you can get a friend who’s further into her transition or cis to help), you can feel a lot more feminine than you might think. When I very first realized I was trans, a cis friend of mine picked out what I should buy and did my makeup and I genuinely liked the way I looked for the first time ever.
Also, any time you do feel good about how you look, TAKE PICTURES. You can look back on them when you feel your worst and see the woman you really are.