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Cake day: July 1st, 2023

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  • Gawd I love drinking but I can’t do it anymore cuz very specific things (used to drink 10+ drinks every night for almost half a decade and tbh it was the best thing ever aside from the weight gain and the fact that if I kept going it would kill me) so now I’m just into some drugs I like.

    It’s been ages since my last drink and I’m VERY lucky, I went from years of ultra heavy drinking to nothing cold turkey (in a controlled setting, no anti-seizure meds or benzos either) and no seizures, no withdrawals, no DTs. Just crazy bad sleep for a few weeks and then 6-8+ hours a night every night after about a month.

    I wish I liked THC more, but it depends on the day. Sometimes it’s nice! It’s just about time for my tri-annual heroic dose of X, though. It’s been more than a year and that’s unacceptable.








  • Niiiiice! I did SLI 7900GTs when Crysis came out and it ran at like 40+ FPS even with explosions on screen! It cost me an unholy amount…

    the machine I now use for Beat Saber wasn’t as crazy as the Crysis machine: it’s an i5-4790k, 16 or 32GB DDR3, and a couple SSDs. I replaced its 1070 just because I had a better card laying around. I hope it works well for many years to come! It’s also SOMEHOW inexplicably powered by a 500w bronze semi-modular PSU that seems like it’s going to go on forever into eternity… I hope so, it’s been so good to me!








  • Ugh yeeeep I feel you on salvia. I still have some 40x extract. I did it once and I hated it soooo much. I felt so weird, I kept hallucinating, the body load was awful, and I felt like I had flashbacks too hahaha.

    n,n-DMT is the opposite of that. The body load is the heaviest of anything I’ve ever done, not even close. It smells like aliens. It tastes like aliens. You need to rip big rips three or four times in a row and hold it in to break through. Your body is SCREAMING at you to stop after the second rip. But if you manage… it’s the most actual legitimate magic thing in the world ever. Legitimately actual magical wonder. All of the jokes people make are true. I saw a color that doesn’t exist in the regular world. I can still see it in my mind and that was like 16 years ago. I don’t have the right crayons to show other people, but I do have a vial full of graham cracker-colored powder I’ve had for ages. I think it’s time to try breaking through again soon.


  • Nawhhh those are not actually psilocybin, so if you’re only looking for mushies, you’d probably not be as into those! All of the things I mentioned are powders you eat, except 25i which is sold as acid but it tastes bad, is a bad feeling, and can harm or kill (unlike acid)

    I don’t blame your apprehension! The things I’ve mentioned are once-per-year or once-ever drugs for me. I will only ever do 5-MeO-DiPT again because my current (forever) partner has never tried it and would like to. None of the things I’ve talked about are addictive, but they are man-made. Mephedrone is the most evil man-made chemical. It’s like ecstasy you sniff and it makes you feel REALLY good, for a little while. And then you can just do more. And there’s no hangover! …until you do it a few times. Then it becomes the most fiendy thing in the world, ever. I’ve tried everything and the only problems were alcohol, Xanax (both were not terrible to quit, just a few days of feeling not great and getting bad sleep.) Meth was fine but didn’t me wanna keep doing it. Opiates were okay but maybe just not for me, they felt cool but the only good type I’ve ever tried was smoking actual opium, that smelled awesome and felt nice.

    But Mephedrone… the final time I did it, both nostrils were clogged and bloody and dry and I couldn’t breathe out of them and ALL I COULD DO was look at the white pile in front of us and watch my mates take lil toots and salivate, thinking “oh my god I would do ANYTHING to get more of that into me right now”. It was an all-consuming feeling and thought, encompassing my entire existence. Eating it doesn’t work very well and at that time, I hadn’t plugged anything (put it in my bum) or I would have taken a chunk of it and gone to the bathroom. It was THAT fiendy.

    I woke up the next day smelling of cat piss (Mephedrone reeks) and was astonished something could make me feel that way. I vowed never to touch it again—I kept that vow.

    That was like 15 years ago or so. If someone was like “I have a gram, wanna snort it” I would 100% say yes absolutely in a microsecond. But now I’m old and wiser and know I can’t just have piles around… the other worst part is how cheap it was. Five, ten USD a gram in bulk, and a gram is a LOT, takes you way further than a gram of coke.

    Evil, addictive, fiendy shit. Don’t ever do it. But it’s fucking amazing. (I feel like I’m in that scene from Walk Hard the way I talk about it.)


  • If you’re interested in a comfier trip, I hope you’re able to find them someday! I was lucky and just stumbled across them via friend groups. I’ve tried everything basically… my friends all seem to like the 2c chems, but I’ve tried them all and haven’t been a fan. I HATE 25i. Hate hate hate. I spit out immediately. Ptooey.

    AMT is very comfy, same with 4aco. I was a bit sad when we came down from those, and usually at the end of a trip, I’m very ready for it to be done. They both just felt like really clean mushy trips with no shitting.

    5-MeO-DiPT was the WEIRDEST time I’ve ever had in my life. Insane body load, insane auditory distortion, and my only experience with temporal distortion… we were listening to a song we were extremely familiar with and the song would pitch down, our bodies would become heavy, and time would sloooowww doowwwnnn like the song was being played on a turntable at too low of an RPM. Absolutely insane feelings. I was SO happy it was over when we came down but I was also very happy I had that crazy experience.