born to meow
omg russia 2.0, flashbacks of medical staff does like that, which wanted me put in fcking country psychiatry database
imagine aka progressive paid psychodoctor which
a 36 yo man asking a 15yo girl about “how u imagine yourself while masturbating”
hopefully is one of the soft one
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa veryyy pain
quite risky aaaaaaaa, since i live in shithole, but idk since i asocialized not very bothers much
huuhh but audhd gives me much more stress than dysphoria, i somewhat disable(?), i basically cant do typical work/education/society/money etc etc, hopefully parents helpful so not bothers much, i am smart but uhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaa awawawaaa but basically cant leave country especially alone and we dont have that much money plus cats(tishka veryyy veryyy veryyy anxious cat he scared of everything he will not survive at all)
wanna be someone pet aaaaaa and live like now
also very terrible that it decreasing my appetite sooo much also scared that it involves muscle tensions buuuuuuuuuuuut is kinda not depended on it since it not antips*chotics(BUUUUUUT also often causes bruxism in ppl i also have tmj pains(sometimes is that awful that goes into whole head, ketoprofen fixes) or hypertensions with whole face/upperbody), tizanidine also helps a lot but somehow it stopped working since yesterday but i taking it only few days 2mg/twice and switched to 2mg/3times need try different doses and timing since is veryy short acting (half life 2.54h)
why they sell it with 107-y prescribtion aaaaaaaaaa its terrible i dont wanna go to another city to my dumb psycho, and giving money to them, maybe maybe maybe try find local neurologist
very fun hrt progress!!
11 months is still smol amount!!!
dont be dysphoric !!!
yuh i had this idea w patches
reeeeeeeaaalll, huuuuh for me there a lot of bullying from childhood, weirdness, feeeling of 3rd sort, feeeling veryyyyy disable etc etc etc, trouble understanding ppl, trouble properly socializing with ppl (sometimes pretty failed), trouble in school, delayed development(?) etc etc etc
i am AuDHD soooo huuuuh adhd making tasks terrible, the system, basically there a lot things which i as always forgetting when saying
there doc’s are faschists they usually claiming schizotypal disorder on me(hopeeeeefully it not leaked to psychiatry database i got blank harmless diagnosis in psych ward thank you mom)
but there a correct answer is autism, especially having weirdness from 0 yo
alsoooo hooow stereotypical i am trans girl toooo huuuuuuh but it doesnt make my life harder since i already neurodivergent and hopefully luck to start hrt early
sertraline shoudnt
bupropion can but lottery huuuuuuh, but https://novayagazeta.ru/articles/2020/02/21/84021-vo-vsem-mire-prinimayut-bupropion-v-rossii-net is insanely dangerous to order substances which banned
by logic russian FSB can mention it at customs then arrive to postal office “normally” then they will ask passport even on inside country packages - voala you get raped by govrenment
caffeine is interesting idea hehehe
vpn to buy vpn
vpn to open website which doesnt work to get access denied message bacause hostings IPs are blacklisted often
waow right russia, hmmm i think phenibut can help but assholes made it prescribtion but hopefully is simple prescribtion, it low toxicitity
logically it can increase dopamine activity
hmmmmm seeems like piracetam is w/o prescribtion but idk how good it is
i also take SSRI (sertraline) idk seems placebo for me, but there possibility that i get wkrse if get off basically psychomeds didnt help me at all (i was on lurasidone/valproate before, dumb psyches tried schizophrenia treatment because i trans, but hopefully i get out from this and IT A LOOOOOOOOT MUCH MORE BETTER), hrt is basically made me happy again and even feel better than in childhood, also did much better for ADHD stuff and social interactions, and EMOOOTIONS
hehehe moderating mood helps
also my sensory shit distract on muscle tension sooo much
i literally sayed that to my psych - “it looks normal!” but it getting me insanely feel bad hehe
tried scheme
the fun that similar structure clonidine can be used for ADHD stuff
russia is asshole which thinks ADHD is western fake disease, which only possible in childhood and doesnt have in adults etc etc
all stimulative, dopaminergenic meds are banned either very very very strong controlled
okay i can live with this but is teeeeerrible, the worst is education/work/exams, and here im insanely “dumb” in other ppl view , basically i dont think i do united govr exam, next year, then college/uni will be much more awful for me i cant i cant just cant i hate society made for NTs, work? low paid maybe possible
more worst is unability to get out from this asshole country
wtf where u live when get hrt at 12 basically avoiding male puberty at all
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa awful, how trans friendly area are?(where live)
cost of transition in thirdworld dictatorship
oestrogel 0.6mg/g - $26/month(1 bottle/month)
progesterone 100mg - $7/month
useless diagnosis - $55 once in private clinic(free for luckshits in psych wards, but there almost impossible now but veryyy possible to get schizo spectrum or idk)
orchiectomy - around $3000 inside country plus 200$ maybe travel to city(using fictional diagnosises in surgery documentation)
name change - idk didnt get it but is should bee just small fees for new passport but more pain is other docs
gender change - sorry putler said no
bloodtest - varies but last time for hormones was $46 (E2, T, freeT, LH/FSH, DHT, prolactine, SHBG, albumin) usually cheaoer but my brainworms decided to test useless things such as freeT(overpaid as hell since i tried to calculate with albumin/shbg, total T and it was veeeeryy similar number what i got )
plus more
home internet - $11 500mbit for party approved websites private vps hosting which hopefully not blocked now(hetzner blocked as well digiocean and some others) sooo +4 euro for unlimited internet access with full speed
rent - uwaaaa own flat here, but utilities is veryyy unfun atleast possible go to debt
idk wa more but it gets more expensive, if turn off TV zombiebox(idk i dont have TV)
aaaaaa stop crosspost ppplls
trans_joy is for JOY photos and texts transfem is for discussions and for any photos which discussion etc
дак конечно, нами замечено подобное ранее
у нас во всем так скамят лоооол