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Cake day: March 12th, 2026

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  • aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa veryyy pain

    quite risky aaaaaaaa, since i live in shithole, but idk since i asocialized not very bothers much

    huuhh but audhd gives me much more stress than dysphoria, i somewhat disable(?), i basically cant do typical work/education/society/money etc etc, hopefully parents helpful so not bothers much, i am smart but uhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaa awawawaaa but basically cant leave country especially alone and we dont have that much money plus cats(tishka veryyy veryyy veryyy anxious cat he scared of everything he will not survive at all)

    wanna be someone pet aaaaaa and live like now

    also very terrible that it decreasing my appetite sooo much also scared that it involves muscle tensions buuuuuuuuuuuut is kinda not depended on it since it not antips*chotics(BUUUUUUT also often causes bruxism in ppl i also have tmj pains(sometimes is that awful that goes into whole head, ketoprofen fixes) or hypertensions with whole face/upperbody), tizanidine also helps a lot but somehow it stopped working since yesterday but i taking it only few days 2mg/twice and switched to 2mg/3times need try different doses and timing since is veryy short acting (half life 2.54h)

    why they sell it with 107-y prescribtion aaaaaaaaaa its terrible i dont wanna go to another city to my dumb psycho, and giving money to them, maybe maybe maybe try find local neurologist





  • erin the catgirl@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPtoADHD@lemmy.worldvent?
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    8 days ago

    reeeeeeeaaalll, huuuuh for me there a lot of bullying from childhood, weirdness, feeeling of 3rd sort, feeeling veryyyyy disable etc etc etc, trouble understanding ppl, trouble properly socializing with ppl (sometimes pretty failed), trouble in school, delayed development(?) etc etc etc

    i am AuDHD soooo huuuuh adhd making tasks terrible, the system, basically there a lot things which i as always forgetting when saying

    there doc’s are faschists they usually claiming schizotypal disorder on me(hopeeeeefully it not leaked to psychiatry database i got blank harmless diagnosis in psych ward thank you mom)

    but there a correct answer is autism, especially having weirdness from 0 yo

    alsoooo hooow stereotypical i am trans girl toooo huuuuuuh but it doesnt make my life harder since i already neurodivergent and hopefully luck to start hrt early




  • erin the catgirl@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPtoADHD@lemmy.worldvent?
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    8 days ago

    waow right russia, hmmm i think phenibut can help but assholes made it prescribtion but hopefully is simple prescribtion, it low toxicitity

    logically it can increase dopamine activity

    hmmmmm seeems like piracetam is w/o prescribtion but idk how good it is

    i also take SSRI (sertraline) idk seems placebo for me, but there possibility that i get wkrse if get off basically psychomeds didnt help me at all (i was on lurasidone/valproate before, dumb psyches tried schizophrenia treatment because i trans, but hopefully i get out from this and IT A LOOOOOOOOT MUCH MORE BETTER), hrt is basically made me happy again and even feel better than in childhood, also did much better for ADHD stuff and social interactions, and EMOOOTIONS


  • erin the catgirl@piefed.blahaj.zoneOPtoADHD@lemmy.worldvent?
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    8 days ago

    hehehe moderating mood helps

    also my sensory shit distract on muscle tension sooo much

    i literally sayed that to my psych - “it looks normal!” but it getting me insanely feel bad hehe

    tried scheme

    • mention TMJ problem to get muscle relaxant
    • stupid psych sent me to orthodentist
    • orthodentist confirmed said muscle relaxants
    • sent message to stupid psych
    • get fucking tolperisone recommendation aka very expensive underresearched east bloc shit, when i saw the message i wanted say “fuck you” to psych but instead listened
    • get much much worse for days after one pill
    • said is shit and psych send me to neurologist (dumb) im not billionaire paying for another stupid neurologist and the free one has major waitlists since i still on pediatrican care until 18
    • self medicate again using tizanidine which i wanted from the start (hopefully i got it w/o prescribtion)
    • holy its cheap and worked from one pill after some hours!!!
    • continued, feeling aaa looooot more comfy in own skin less distracted and happy!

    the fun that similar structure clonidine can be used for ADHD stuff

    russia is asshole which thinks ADHD is western fake disease, which only possible in childhood and doesnt have in adults etc etc

    all stimulative, dopaminergenic meds are banned either very very very strong controlled

    okay i can live with this but is teeeeerrible, the worst is education/work/exams, and here im insanely “dumb” in other ppl view , basically i dont think i do united govr exam, next year, then college/uni will be much more awful for me i cant i cant just cant i hate society made for NTs, work? low paid maybe possible

    more worst is unability to get out from this asshole country




  • aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa awful, how trans friendly area are?(where live)

    cost of transition in thirdworld dictatorship

    oestrogel 0.6mg/g - $26/month(1 bottle/month)

    progesterone 100mg - $7/month

    useless diagnosis - $55 once in private clinic(free for luckshits in psych wards, but there almost impossible now but veryyy possible to get schizo spectrum or idk)

    orchiectomy - around $3000 inside country plus 200$ maybe travel to city(using fictional diagnosises in surgery documentation)

    name change - idk didnt get it but is should bee just small fees for new passport but more pain is other docs

    gender change - sorry putler said no

    bloodtest - varies but last time for hormones was $46 (E2, T, freeT, LH/FSH, DHT, prolactine, SHBG, albumin) usually cheaoer but my brainworms decided to test useless things such as freeT(overpaid as hell since i tried to calculate with albumin/shbg, total T and it was veeeeryy similar number what i got )

    plus more

    home internet - $11 500mbit for party approved websites private vps hosting which hopefully not blocked now(hetzner blocked as well digiocean and some others) sooo +4 euro for unlimited internet access with full speed

    rent - uwaaaa own flat here, but utilities is veryyy unfun atleast possible go to debt

    idk wa more but it gets more expensive, if turn off TV zombiebox(idk i dont have TV)