“Earning a living”.

Downvoters need to get their heads out of their asses.

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12376390/

Be careful. Most of the water you consume comes from food. You don’t need 2 L/half gallon above and beyond what you eat per day. This is a myth from a misreading of a military study from the Republic of Gilead.

Set a timer. Sit. Write bullshit until timer yells.

The secret seems to lie in not giving a shit what you write.

en flashant.

Discovered attack.

I recommend the book The Myth of Normal by Gabor Mate for some possible insights.

I recommend loving kindness meditation, also known as “metta”. There is an old saying that 1 hour of metta for a troublesome person is worth 100 hours of other kinds of meditation. I have used it to help me work through and (mostly) get past my feelings for the troublesome people in my life, even including an alcoholic and abusive parent.

Metta for myself also helps me make peace with how I feel, the constant “on guard” mode, which I know helped me survive, but isn’t needed to that degree any longer. It makes sense that I am this way. It’s not always fun, but I’m also not broken.

There is so much more, but I offer you this as a place to start. I hope that others give you helpful ideas.

Peace.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Birds_Do_It%2C_Bees_Do_It