I’ve even chased friends away either because they got tired of me doubting their sincerity when they say nice things, or because I got tired of annoying them by doubting their sincerity when they say nice things. Either way, I couldn’t deal with the constant anxiety of “I don’t know if I can trust you because you’re not openly insulting me.”
Some people might think I have a humiliation fetish. I don’t. I’m just extremely insecure and humiliation is what I’m used to. Like a comfort zone almost. It’s familiar territory, unlike affection or admiration. I’ve ended relationships because I couldn’t understand why or how a person could genuinely like me for who I am, so I thought it must be part of some plot to destroy me.
I’m similar. i have had close groups of friends before but I always assume I’m unwanted so I tend to withdraw and quietly leave. or try to leave. and people are confused and ask me to stay.
and I just end up looking at them like they’re lost or something.
Same!
I’ve even chased friends away either because they got tired of me doubting their sincerity when they say nice things, or because I got tired of annoying them by doubting their sincerity when they say nice things. Either way, I couldn’t deal with the constant anxiety of “I don’t know if I can trust you because you’re not openly insulting me.”
Some people might think I have a humiliation fetish. I don’t. I’m just extremely insecure and humiliation is what I’m used to. Like a comfort zone almost. It’s familiar territory, unlike affection or admiration. I’ve ended relationships because I couldn’t understand why or how a person could genuinely like me for who I am, so I thought it must be part of some plot to destroy me.
I’m similar. i have had close groups of friends before but I always assume I’m unwanted so I tend to withdraw and quietly leave. or try to leave. and people are confused and ask me to stay.
and I just end up looking at them like they’re lost or something.