To be succinct and private… My incubator worked me for weeks to build rapport and trust with me in my younger days, to get me to tell her a something that she would ultimately, and immediately use and weaponize against me and others.
This wasnt the first time I tried to have a relationship with her, but it did finally open my eyes and become the last. In the many many decades since, I’ve not so much as acknowledge her existence when crossing paths.
Recognized for being really intelligent.
Rejected my thoughts and opinions about everything because it scares their fundamentalist religious sensabilities.
That cognitive dissonance still fucks with me.
Oh I run into this very often with friends and family.
“Hey, you’re smart and can figure things out, how do I solve X”
They get an answer they don’t like, and I immediately go back to being a dumbfuck who doesnt know anything.
My dad isn’t religious at all, but is a narcissistic shithead, and everything is dumb except him. Everything he does is smart, everything me and my sister does is dumb. It annoys the fuck out of me and we hardly even talk. I sometimes ask him for advice on some things, just to make him feel better, and every time he says the dumbest shit imaginable. He complqined about his electric bill last year, and i said mine is way lower, even with my heat pump. He said there must be a mistake. And i told him it’s because he turns on the light every morning and leaves it on all day, everywhere he goes in the house, every single day. Whenever someone asks him he says something like: electricity is cheap or he can afford it, or just laughs. He’s a lazy sack of shit, that’s all, and since i told him that’s why, he does it out of spite.