Vaccines could cause autism since they contain immune system steroids, and should probably not be given to people who haven’t reached adulthood. Anyone who is a decent mother has probably thought about this. GMOs can also be dangerous although not likely, outside of fats, your bodies tends to break down other things. Flat earth is a troll. Climate change is real but the solutions people have for dealing with it are stupid, annoying, intrusive, and impractical. Cars get shittier year after year because of the stupid laws, meanwhile the human population is exploding.

Also don’t tell me I don’t understand the science because I do. I just figure out things myself instead of trusting corporations and social media companies. People who unironicly think that vaccines are safe did not form that conclusion by, “understanding the science”. They came to that conclusion because some other liberal corporatists told them too. It is true vaccines will cause the cow herd to be a bit more resilient, but also if that comes at the cost of the brain and mental health, then no that’s fucking stupid. Sure to corporations having bodies is probably the best thing for them. They need as many workers as possible, but from a human standpoint, there is nothing more valuable than your mind. Don’t waste your children’s minds to make cattle for corporations.

I have no idea what mine is, but Im a bit scared of boobs because I’m trying to pass as both. I’m a bit older and have a job and stuff, but I have been making moves to set me up for the future in case things go south.

Honestly the longer you take them the more affect you will see in everyway, so if something about the transition bothers you, just know that in a year it will be better.

My favorite and unexpected thing by far have been the changes to my mind. I never really considered it. It feels like a huge upgrade from the guy hormones. I feel so calm. I love it.

To me hrt was like DMT a bit as in, you really don’t realize what you are getting into until the moment you do it and it hits you. I realized that where drugs target a neurotransmitter system, this hormone was affecting not only every part of my body but also the epigenetic expression of probably nearly every protein in my body.

I kind of was a bit confused about the how trans am I really? thing… I felt like an imposter a bit. I knew it wasn’t a fetish because I have always felt like a girl on the inside but when I started it I realized that I really was a woman. On a deep biological level. Not just in my personality and my style preferences, and in the people I admired, and the way I acted without a filter, but like the deep alignment i felt the day I put estrogen in my body. I realized quickly that I wasn’t faking it. That I really was a woman because for the first time in my life I felt and acted normal. My brain just worked. My energy was stable, as my emotions were as well. I felt good. Complacent. Beautiful.

Idk I’m glad you found yourself. I hope I can make friends in the future in my local area. I’m basically reliving entire phases of my life rn trying to just be myself and be normal like I never could do earlier. I’m glad there are millions of trans people now. People used to misunderstand us more but I think the future will be positive, and this time when the anti gay angle does I don’t think it will come back again.

Another cool thought. People think we are weird but I actually think we are the normal ones. I think we are normal humans. I think humans are just fluid and andro typically and are like geysers of pure creativity and form and individual art. I think humans are supposed to not care about their gender and gender was never really meant to be anything other than different sexual organs and personality and stuff. Guys were always meant to be cute and girls were meant to just be less intense versions of cute guys. Idk tho.

I loved reading that. Thank you! I totally get the walking into doors stuff that happened pretty much immediately for me. Our experiences are highly similar.

When I started I definitely felt different emotionally. I was way more calm and relaxed and emotionally stable personally. However at about the 6 month mark, I do a lower dose btw and aim for a very typical female range, I really started to notice some of the deeper epigenetic changes starting to take place. A bit after 6 months my body hair slowed its growth significantly. My facial hair a bit, and boobs started to appear. I actually noticed a bit of extra butt first, something I liked. I was losing a little hope about my body hair and then It happened pretty quick.

To me it seemed like the personality stuff came on fairly hard from the first day I took it. It took a bit before I started noticing changes in my shape.

So if you are wondering what to expect, I would say,

1st day - personality and emotional changes. Mine was very positive. Lower blood pressure maybe a bit of light headedness. Slight changes in my digestion and stomach ph.

Month 1 - month 4 - skin changes, losing a bit of strength, energy levels becoming more stable then I was used to on guy hormones. Quite mind, comfortable and happy and warm. Body’s biosphere is adjusting to new PH. Slight feminization of face due to softer muscle tension and clearer and softer skin. Nipples are very sensitive and I lost most of my male sexual desire. Start to find guys a bit cuter then I normally do. Facial hair became thinner and lighter.

Month 6 - noticing fat distribution changes. Stomach is smaller for same weight, by this point I had lost a fair bit of mass in my shoulder and neck area, started to get the first signs of actual breasts, have to be careful what shirt I wear if I’m guy moding. Stomach is smaller, thighs are getting a bit thicker, and pants fit tighter. I have a butt now! Not noticable but cute. Body hair has slowed significantly.

Now I’m around month 7-8. I had a bit of a depressive period cuz I was freaking out a little about the boobs. I was hoping I’d be able to hide it a little longer. Still I’m very happy and got over it. Instill know I want to do it now no matter what comes of it. It’s how I want to live.

I have enjoyed watching the changes because I have an interest in biology. I also like to tell others what they might can expect.

You should know what the concept of science is before you go using the word like your sacrificial cow. Google is one of the most anti scientific institutions on earth. You should never believe anything you read from Google.

Go bother someone else please

I have no idea but I think it’s just because of the difference in the way modern mothers think compared to mothers in the 90s and stuff. Modern mothers do not just blindly take medicine and stuff when they are pregnant. Sometimes medicines can have weird effects on the immune system and allergies can be developed when the immune system associates harmless things with disease. This is a wild guess, but I bet many of these people had peanut allergies because their mothers were taking antihistamines or something in the 90s while they were pregnant. It used to be considered safe and often recommended for mother’s to take a wide variety of medicine, but our understanding of medicine has advanced quite a bit since then, and we now understand the body as a far more dynamic and self balancing thing, and we weigh the risks of using drugs to be high. In modern times doctors will shy away from prescribing drugs to pregnant mothers unless there is something dangerous or particularly needed.

Interpreted languages are languages that are compiled at run time. Compiled languages are compiled into binary by a compiler and then distributed as binaries.

Basically with interpreted languages, there is huge overhead because the code has to be compiled (turned into machine code) as the program is running. This is why games and operating systems are written in C but people learn how to write Python and Java in their college classes. Interpreted languages are often much easier to learn then C and cross platform, but C is fast and powerful.

C does one thing really well and that’s everything fast with complete control. Python is cool for people just trying to bang out some scripts or learning to program but interpreted languages have no place in mainstream software. Devices are starting to become slower than computers 30 years ago because there is so much garbage being included in apps written in interpreted java and Python and other nonsense. It’s not just bad for the user but it’s bad for the planet. It shouldn’t take a million times the energy to run a simple program because someone doesn’t know how to write in a proper language. Python is okay for some things. The world has become too reliant on it though. Also just for purely selfish reasons if you are the type. Interpreted languages kill your battery life and ram and stuff. Modern android phones besides all their problems with Google ruining them like Microsoft are also just becoming incredibly slow and stupid. You can barely even open two apps without most android phones panicking and closing apps to save memory. A calculator app is 100 MBs now. The phone feels like it’s going to catch on fire when you open a notepad.

Honestly half of people are going to hate you no matter what you do. Might as well be yourself and be happy and enjoy life. Transitioning was the greatest decision I ever made and has been the most positive but scary choice I ever made. There is no price you can put on feeling normal. Not normal in the sense that you are like everyone else, but normal in the sense that you feel like a normal human being who doesn’t have to hide stuff, and you like who you are in the mirror.

I never really took an interest in anything and I always had a lot of anger and shame and darkness. I didn’t even realize how much of this was tied to the fact that I was trying to be someone that I wasn’t. I thought transitioning would mildly improve my life and happiness, but felt it was important to do it because of all the hate, and that people needed to see that someone like me could be a trans person. When I actually did it. It was like the first day of my life. I didn’t even realize how much disphoria I had. I never realized just how much more I liked myself as a girl. I’m one of those people who was very trans and had a hard time ever being a guy. There was really never any other option for me, but nevertheless I did try extremely hard to learn to be a guy and to try to be. It made me miserable and ashamed constantly.

Now I do have a little discomfort. Seeing just how trans I really was is kind of scary, not for me but for others. I was so deluded, and I feel really bad for those people who are like me but never figured it out. I also feel bad because so many people think being trans is just some lifestyle choice people make. I’m sure it is for some people. That’s okay. Yet so many trans people could never do anything else, and it scares me that society tries so hard to shame people for it and lie about us, and that people are so dumb they think that lying and trying to be normal, is something everyone can and should do.

That’s why normies have a hard time understanding us. They are used to wearing the same clothes having the same haircut, pretending to like the same things as their peers, and yet they also can feel love and they have a typical sexuality. They don’t hate how they look as their own gender. Those people will just never understand what it’s like to have disphoria and to be almost psychologically nonfunctional and Inca deep state of depression because your entire inner world is wrapped in shame.

It doesn’t help that the weakest and most pathetic of all men are in charge of our nation now. The types of people who can only bully and pick on what they perceive as being the smallest minority that has the least power. Trump and the Republicans attack trans people because they feel it’s safe to hate us, that we have the least popularity, because there are the least consequences for attacking us. Something I personally try to counteract, but it is what it is.

Despite all of this. I am finally healthy and motivated and I have this ever elusive almost non-existent thing on this planet. Happiness, real happiness. I smile when I see my feminine body in the mirror. I get excited about life. I giggle and laugh and nothing seems all that serious to me anymore. For the first time in my life. I am alive. I am breathing. Not walking the earth like some demon punished by reality, but alive, happy, true to myself. I have lost weight, started to eat healthy. I have become a better parent, a better friend. I let go of my delusions. I became braver. I stopped caring about about material things, but also I find it easier to save and to plan for my future. Money may be unobtainable but happiness is not.

All the money in the world will never buy you happiness or a smile when looking in the mirror. In that way I have become wealthier than all the corporations who try to Lord over us. When I see some dude in a costume with a Hitler haircut on tv. I can smile knowing that I’m actually happy while they are always going to be miserable and hurt themselves in their own confusion. They will be miserable because they are horrible human beings, I was sad because I lost many friends. Yet at the end of the day I sleep well, because my heart is pure. I am not hurting others or making the world a worse place. These people who oppose us, they are hurting all the time and they sell their souls for money. I sleep like a baby, with a smile on my face, even if incels want to call us things because they don’t understand us. They also can’t sleep well at night. Not that I wish them bad, but being a bad person and a hateful person is punishment enough in itself. Being a good person and knowing yourself is reward enough in itself. Being a decent human being, telling the truth, being brave. These are not just virtues for society, but for your own soul. True happiness does come from being a good person.

If you are a baby trans, you can do it on your own time if you are scared. You don’t have to tell others. It is very scary at first. I spent 3 years crying as I unscrambled my brain, but when I started treatment it was night and day. I realized being trans was much deeper than just my identity. It was my brain chemistry. It was my emotional stability. My energy levels. From the day I started treatment my mental health improved significantly because believe it or not there is a deep biological basis to many trans people that causes them to not be healthy with the wrong hormones. This was strangely affirming if not also shocking. Realizing that it wasn’t just in my head or wishful thinking but a very real reality. It’s also the thing that disturbed me the most. I realize now just how many people out there suffer everyday because they brain is poisoned by their bodies own hormones and I see how hard it is for so many people to get the treatment they need because of the hate and misunderstanding which is made worse by the hateful and ignorant people who don’t care if we suffer.

I am really happy with it despite the rampant transphobia. Irl people arent nearly as transphobic as the internet would have you believe imo. Still lost many friends, but its worth smiling in the mirror every night and having motivation.