Yes, I create stuff but my point is that it’s less a choice to do so and more a bandaid. Like having an itch in your palm that can only be fixed with the tooth bite maneuver or something. The instant relief is there but it’ll come back very shortly. My brain is constantly going. Even with medication, it still constantly goes. Yeah, I can make connections that others don’t or find patterns faster than my peers but the constant search for dopamine is exhausting as fuck