I’m living in Canada but I just wondered if we have anyone from Türkiye?
If so, how is life there? I know economy and everything got worse but I just wondered if there is hope for Erdoğan-free Türkiye with EU membership?
I moved to Canada at age 18, and I realized I’m trans here (fuck me sideways for not doing any research until moving to Canada like I could do something at age 15…) and I started HRT at age 18,5. I’m 22 now, and I don’t really see a future in Canada for myself.
Rents are crazy, no jobs anywhere, here is not really accepting imo anyways like not dystopia, and FFS costs 124k CAD like what the fuck?! I would rather get it in Türkiye.
I barely passed B2 English in Türkiye, and English is harder than I expected. I got accepted to a college but it was hard asf and I left. Education is really overrated like it’s not better than Türkiye imo. Everyone is so cold and fake here. I wish I figured out everything earlier but idk which option would be best for me.
I’m feeling hopeless and down…
I don’t want you to worry about me but I don’t see any other option than suicide for myself. I have nothing, no skills, no money, no support, language barrier, and Türkiye is even worse than here right now.
I wish I was never born. I’m living in pure agony…
I know it can seem impossible right now but queer and trans community will save you life. Please please please try to find your peers in your city, there are always queer and trans groups organising in major cities, there will be meetups, support groups etc. Please reach out to your trans community.
Aww babe dont say that! You DO have support, i support you and i love you. Others here as well i know for a sure fact are your supporters and are willing to help any way they or i can. Youre beautiful! Never forget that ❤️❤️
As for the post topic, i always thought of canada as a pretty forward country. Being its southern neighbor, i know what it can turn into fairly quickly and canada does seem to be having some trouble with reich wing ideology in its govt. Even still, canada is supposedly one of the top places for trans people to live. Is there any type of DHS (Human Resources) that you can reach out to? Thatd be an idea to start, see if you can get insurance and stuff to cover the cost.
Furthering that, here comes a barrage of questions you can answer or not answer or just answer some, whatever feels comfortable for you:
how old are you and do you have a passport? Do you have any other citizenship anywhere or any connections (family, friends, etc) to other countries? Are you employed?(no shame if youre not! Im not employed currently either!) Are you unsafe or under threat of ANY type of harm against you? And what is it that youre looking for ultimately? Like, what are your goals and what type of situation is ideal for you to achieve those goals? I hope im wording that well enough!
Ive felt exactly like you in regard to living in agony. Damn near all of us have. I know everyone says this but youre not alone, you are loved, i love you! You would be missed dearly, and id rather live in a world with you in it ❤️❤️
Like i always say to everyone feeling like you do, my DMs are always open to anybody here, including you. Never hesitate to reach out and talk to me ❤️❤️
Thank you but repping without knowing wtf was wrong with me since age 15 seriously damaged my brain…
I thought I’m feeling like a girl or want to be one because I’m a bisexual male, and when my therapist asked “would u be happy as a woman?” I said no because I thought he is being homophobic (back in Turkiye age 16 something). He was also a weirdo so I really thought he is fetishizing me lol. (Stupid teenager mind but he was seriously a weirdo like I said I have foot fetish just to wonder if I’m sick and he asked “u like up or down side?” I was like why does it matter then said one and he said “mmm” then switched to a random topic LMFAO)
Turkiye had insane amount of surveillance so I was afraid of searching LGBT stuff… I made trans friend in Canada only and it was too late for me when I found out everything…
It hurts really so bad… I lost everything. I’m never gonna be able to afford surgeries, my mental health is fucked due dysphoria like I don’t even want to go outside. I used to be fem even until age 16 and I fucked everything… I didn’t leave my comfort zone I was a coward… I didn’t recognize gaslighting patterns of my family etc.
I really just want to die. I’m post orchi and on hrt for 3,5 years and I was looking more fem and sounding more fem at age 15 even without HRT… What’s the point of keep living? My shoulders and ribcage became massive.
It is so painful, and I’m left to kill myself. My family also wants me to leave the home one day. I can’t believe that I did this to myself…
i hope u doesnt and doesnt seen 4tran related communities, idk because i seen person on another acc who mentioning turkey -> canada and 4tran
im not “hugboxxing” u, but most ppl really just brainwormed
I’m not brainwormed sadly…
Vice versa I was even delusional and ignorant at the beginning of my transition.
Realization of it was over before it began was brutal to me.
Fuck this life seriously.
Girl it isn’t over. I didn’t even start until I was 25, you can do it and don’t give up hope so soon!
It’s always too late for transition, but we have to do it because dysphoria gets worse.
I wish I knew it’s something that I can’t or shouldn’t repress…
I wouldn’t worry about the past. It happened and there’s nothing we can do about it.
There are ways to look the way you want, or at least enough that your dysphoria is manageable and you are happy. You just have to keep trying ❤️
nyaaa yeah agree so much
Instead of judging the country, maybe I should judge province by province as here’s system is different from Turkiye.
New Brunswick is the most affordable one according to internet.
I’m trying to learn if their social services pay my rent + food.
I wish Canada joined the EU… We wouldn’t be miserable…
canada is federative country isnt? u should try hopping between provinces and areas inside provinces