Honestly, I don’t like boredom. I had to accept early on that I’d be bored a lot but it doesn’t mean I like it. Then again, I’m constantly bored. I’m not saying I’m bored a lot, I’m saying that is my default state. People are constantly explaining things to me I already understand or otherwise tell me things that do not matter. It’s noise to fill space because they’re uncomfortable with silence and unable to make interesting conversation. At work, if I’m not actively fixing a problem, the boredom is there.
So I make things. I print things out, clean them up, paint them to keep my attention. I build contraptions and devices. I fiddle with settings and make pictures I took look just how I want them. All of this and more just to keep the boredom away for a short time
I’ve always had the same attitude as Betty Draper when it comes to boredom. Only boring people get bored. At the very least, there’s always something interesting to think about.
See, you say that but when you are literally always thinking about things, making connections, finding patterns, and such, it’s exhausting and there is no off switch
Yes, I create stuff but my point is that it’s less a choice to do so and more a bandaid. Like having an itch in your palm that can only be fixed with the tooth bite maneuver or something. The instant relief is there but it’ll come back very shortly. My brain is constantly going. Even with medication, it still constantly goes. Yeah, I can make connections that others don’t or find patterns faster than my peers but the constant search for dopamine is exhausting as fuck
Being bored from time to time
Boredom is underrated.
Being bored means you are really excited when the next thing comes along.
Being bored means you are motivated to create something yourself.
Being bored means you’ll try something you normally would shun.
Honestly, I don’t like boredom. I had to accept early on that I’d be bored a lot but it doesn’t mean I like it. Then again, I’m constantly bored. I’m not saying I’m bored a lot, I’m saying that is my default state. People are constantly explaining things to me I already understand or otherwise tell me things that do not matter. It’s noise to fill space because they’re uncomfortable with silence and unable to make interesting conversation. At work, if I’m not actively fixing a problem, the boredom is there.
So I make things. I print things out, clean them up, paint them to keep my attention. I build contraptions and devices. I fiddle with settings and make pictures I took look just how I want them. All of this and more just to keep the boredom away for a short time
I’ve always had the same attitude as Betty Draper when it comes to boredom. Only boring people get bored. At the very least, there’s always something interesting to think about.
See, you say that but when you are literally always thinking about things, making connections, finding patterns, and such, it’s exhausting and there is no off switch
I not only say it, I live it. There is an off switch of sorts, it’s called sleep.
Ah, I see you don’t have insomnia
Being bored means you are motivated to create something yourself. You kinda proved my point for me.
Thanks.
Yes, I create stuff but my point is that it’s less a choice to do so and more a bandaid. Like having an itch in your palm that can only be fixed with the tooth bite maneuver or something. The instant relief is there but it’ll come back very shortly. My brain is constantly going. Even with medication, it still constantly goes. Yeah, I can make connections that others don’t or find patterns faster than my peers but the constant search for dopamine is exhausting as fuck
Have you tried meditation?
I’ve attempted but my brain is not meant for meditation, I fear